Aug 30, 2012

suara kau takkan buat aku mati.takkan.


kau perli,
aku senyum.

kau kutuk,
aku senyum.

kau sindir,
aku masih senyum.

kau buat hal,
aku saja gelak.

kau cari pasal,
aku cuba buat tak tahu.

kau kecoh sana sini,
aku cuba jadi cool.

kau buat macam macam - - kau tikam aku dalam dalam;
masih aku senyum.
masih aku hormat.
masih.


sekarang,
dah macam longkang.
perasaan aku ; dipijak
rasa hormat aku ; diherdik.
jiwa aku ; kau rakus.

dan,
aku senyap.

sampai sekarang;
aku senyap.


tak apa,
aku cuba senyap.



senyap.
sampai aku mati.


aku cuba senyap.

bila aku mati nanti,
simpan pesan aku baik baik;
"sabar manusia ada limit.bukan aku yang balas dendam,bukan aku yang balas dendam tapi WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND"

seronok buat aku,
seronok buat aku sakit hati.
takpa.


takpa.

buat apa saja yang kau suka.
buat.

mereka ada sokong kau,sanjung kau,lambung kau sampai angkasa.
mereka ada.

buatlah

malas aku fikir.




p/s:
jangan perlekehkan kelemahan orang lain,jangan terlalu taksub dengan kelebihan diri sendiri.

Aug 23, 2012

yeah,lets those souls scream.


trying hard to make people smile then they dump you.

being a clown,stupid clown just to make people laugh then they hurt you,and you swallow those pain,alone.

letting people make fun of you,letting people drag your pride down,just to see them smile.


_________________________________________

this is life.
this is life.

___________________________________________

she is afraid if one day
she will change to someone that you cant deal with.

she is afraid if one day
you will point to her and say;
"where did you put the old you?"

she is afraid if one day
she is not herself.
because
people keep on asking her to create someone
called
The Pieces Of A Soul


she is on her way
to
change.

dont ask her
why.




Aug 22, 2012

when the pictures speak

malam 28 ramadhan
di rumah pengasuh (:

a 'mask' is needed to protect what i have to protect;
broken heart - - ultraman doesnt feel it (:

left;Zulfadhli,sixteen
right;Darwish who loves ultraman and wants me to be a Power Ranger so that we can fight :)

online pada 1 syawal
waiting for nobody to come (:

meet my gentleman Si Kelabu
he is too handsome to be hurt.

Athirah&Zulfadhli
lets capture this moments together (:

2 syawal ditemani hujan
oh ya.
aku jatuh cinta kat dia (:



we are The Six Warriors (:

sementara di dalam kereta,dalam perjalanan pulang ke kampung
otak dialas dengan makanan ini (:






till we meet then,
thank you (:



p/s : bila semua besar nanti,jangan lupa apa plan kita ya (:
harap semuanya akan berjalan lancar,insyaAllah
FIGHTING!
B)

Aug 17, 2012

another rhythm to be heard.


she is
alone
with her broken
smile.
with her broken
tears.
with her broken
laugh.
with her
broken
heart.

he is
alone
with his empty
breathe.
with his empty
thoughts.
with his empty
soul.
with his
empty
heart.

they are
alone
with
their
own world;
called
Miserableland.

yet
she is still hoping.
he is still praying.
they are still wishing.

and
that is
the only
reason
to
hold on.

Aug 13, 2012

Ogos yang muram.Ogos yang suram.Ogos yang sedang sedang.

"everything happens for a reason" ungkapan yang selalu aku dengar setiap kali aku ditimpa musibah.

kadang kadang,bersuara/menyuarakan sesuatu memerlukan tenaga.dan,bagi aku,tenaga yang diperlukan adalah sangat banyak dan banyak.

dan,disebabkan itu,setiap kali aku perlu bersuara,setiap kali aku nak bersuara,at the end;SILENCE.

dan,setiap kali aku senyap,kesimpulan yang mereka buat;SHE IS MAD

whats wrong people?whats wrong?
i speak,no one listens.
i speak,no one cares.
i speak,no one believes.
i speak,no one is there.
i speak,none of you exist.

then,when i DONT speak,
your mind starts to create an event,a situation to pull me down,force me to fall,and accuse me for no reason,at all.

and,one thing i keep; PEOPLE WILL SEE YOU WHEN THEY NEED YOU.



**
ada masa akan bad mood.
ada masa aku takkan ketawa
ada masa aku tak terima gurauan kau
ada masa aku lebih suka menyendiri
dan
itu bukannya memberontak.

silakan sindir menyindir perli memerli.
silakan.
aku tak kisah (:

"being too strong sometimes hurts you because when people think you are that strong,they will always hurt you & think that you are okay.but the truth is;it is painful"

(:



time to go far.
time to go far.
time to go far.
far far far away from you
far far far away from the pain
far far far away from the nightmare.

dont ask me why i have changed
ask yourself why you treat me this way.
dont ask me why i cry less
ask yourself why you hurt me this much.
dont ask me why i dont laugh
ask yourself why your jokes keep on hurting me
dont ask me
dont ask me.
let those questions chase you little human.




Aug 4, 2012

sakit tu sebenarnya sorang sorang yang rasa & takkan ada orang boleh kata; "sakit kita sama rasa". tak ada (:


tidur semalaman yang berjaga;
mimpi tentang makhluk asing
dan lelaki tanpa suara
perempuan tanpa jiwa
matahari terikkan kecewa
raksasa dibaham anak kucing yang baru lahir.

celik mata;
nampak lipas terbang
"ah,binatang meroyan"
tanpa fikir panjang
dicapai apa yang mampu
dipukul
dihentam
hingga tak muncul
sampai sekarang.

cuba bangun cari Pagi
yang jumpa cuma Tengah Hari
tuala dicapai
jalan malas dan terus malas hingga ke bilik mandi
*terlelap*

"mana ibu?"
tiada jawapan.
"mana ayah?"
tiada dibalas.
"mana adik adik?"
meowww

oh mereka dah ke sekolah.

masuk semula ke kamar
pandangan tepat ke arah katil
nampak sangat cantik
"kalau baring sekejap,mungkin tak apa"
kepala menggeleng.
laptop dibuka
pandang screen tanpa sebab
tutup.

dah azan

solat dan
Hai Alam Mimpi.

kita berjumpa lagi,sekali.

ini kerja gila.kerja gila namanya.

_________________________________________________

"kau ada rindu sesiapa kebelakangan ni?"

"tak"

"kau ada teringat sesiapa kebelakangan ni?"

"entah"

"kau ada rasa apa apa kebelakangan ni?"

"ada"

"apa dia?"

"rasa nak lari jauh jauh"

"kenapa?"

"no reason"


*jom main tukar tukar jantung.aku ambil jantung kau,kau ambil jantung aku*
kidding (:

Aug 3, 2012

when Allah answered you doa :')


aku tak tahu.
tak tahu.
tiba tiba ada suara;
jangan curang.
tiba tiba ada bisikan;
tolong setia.
tiba tiba ada permintaan;
simpan untuk aku sorang.
tiba tiba jiwa aku diketuk;
tolong jadi hak aku sorang.

aku tak kenal.
aku tak kenal.
dan.
entah entah dia pun tak kenal aku.

dan
aku tersenyum
(:

dua kali senyum
(:

sampai sekarang masih senyum
(:

doa aku dah dijawab.
doa aku,Allah dah jawab.
alhamdulillah.

dan
awak di sana.
jaga diri baik baik ya.
mungkin andai bukan di dunia,
harap jumpa di syurga,insyaAllah
:')




*gambar hiasan*