Apr 17, 2014

So, apa khabar ?

Too much dusts,I assume.

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Jam 1.05 pagi, 18 April 2014.

Jari jemari terasa untuk menari,sekejap
dan otak mula cuba-cuba pandang belakang, selak muka surat semalam,kelmarin dan terkebelakang.
Mata mula melilau-lilau kononnya "Oh,ada idea di dinding."

Dan berhenti.

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My dear self,
you're now officially 21-year-old. (not too old,isnt?)
What you have done in 20 years ago?

Lemme bring you back,to our past-time(s).

"No,you shouldnt"

Why?

"Because I wont"

Thought that you had too much memories,that need to be removed,isnt?

"Yes. So shut up"

Would you like to , em at least , share something ?

"Life is not about you&the world. Think, why Allah created you? Think, why Allah put you in those conditions that somehow make you weak,but still you can stand up&walk? Think, how much chances have Allah given to you&did you waste it or use it wisely? Think, think & think"

Can I share something, too?

"Go on"

For some reasons, you should go back to your past & sit there. Just sit there & look around you.

"Then?"

Well, before that, make sure that your mind is wide awake & your heart is beating normally. So that it will be easier for you,yourself; to digest what should be digested & to excrete what should be excreted.

In a simple words,
what you had done yesterday will create the new you today; if you think of changing.
but, what you had done yesterday will slowly destroy you; if you think of nothing.

"Goodnight"

Sleep well my dear self.

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Monolog dengan diri sendiri kadang ada baiknya, kadang banyak ke-laut-nya, kan?

Tapi,
pernyataan "BERHIJRAHLAH BERKALI-KALI,TANPA LELAH" betul-betul buat aku terfikir macam ni - - - 

"kenapa berkali kali?"

soalan ini aku pakukan pada setiap kali aku ter-sungkur & ter-benam & ter-tanam.

berkali-kali sebab, untuk istiqomah, bagi orang seperti aku, amatlah susah. Maka, bilamanya ianya dilakukan secara berkali-kali-kali dan kali,
*senyum*

Ya, manusia seperti aku, 
yang terlalu sarat dengan dosa tapi terlalu mendambakan syurga - - -
"berhijrahlah berkali-kali,tanpa lelah"
kerna,
untuk menuju syurgaNya,
jihad harta & jiwa untuk Allah semata 
perlu aku laksana.
perlu.

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1.30 pagi, 18 April 2014

Selamat malam.