Dec 31, 2010

2010's



nedy&nadzy
kawan terbaik.
"smile and everything will be okay"
"go fight fight!"

nedy,
we're not too close,dont have specific time to talk about anything,
when the time showed 7.15, assembly
10.20,rest,but both of you at KO-OP.
and,im still loyal to the canteen.

nadzy,
yes.we're close,very very close,as we're sat together,in the class.
beside each other,
but,no talk.
as i entered the class,teacher started teaching.
as teacher went out,you did your work,i did mine.
and,yes,we fought.
because perhaps the word "JEALOUS"
you knew the addmaths earlier than me,
you knew the chemistry much more earlier than me,
you had finished your topic,but not me.
and,
i didnt mean to scold you when i shut my mouth -,-'

thanks for being one of my bestfriends,
thanks for still keeping my top secret :)


su'aidah
sue
eye (II)

these are her names,

you sat behind me,
always felt you kicked my chair,my bag,
but it's okay ;)

we're not the closest friend,not even once.
because,i thought maybe our thoughts are at the different line,
you are books.
im imaginations.
you are internet.
im illusions.
you are science.
im paper.
you are the brain.
im the whiteboard.

your jokes had hurt me,your words had been my nightmare
but,
these were the colours of my days.
:)


surfina
ona.
i knew her name,
i knew her uniform,
i knew her face,
i knew her smile,
she is the brain too,
the books

but
till now,
i still cant get close with you.
i dont know why,
honestly,when im with you,i feel like "im a guy"
=,=



dua orang di atas,
ATIKAH ABDULLAH
ATIQAH AHMAD

terima kasih menjadi kawan perpustakaan aku,
kawan makan tengah hari,
kawan jam dinding,
kawan buku-buku tebal,

terima kasih selalu ada bila aku perlukan power rangers
terima kasih selalu ada bila aku rasa nak bom kepala orang
terima kasih selalu dengar cerita yang dah boleh masuk dalam tong sampah.

perhaps,
we will never meet again,
never laugh together,again
never give&take again,
never punch each other brain,again.
but,
we will always here,
in my heart
again&again :)


SYAFIQAH RIDZA

note:
janganlah minum air gas COKE,
sangat tak bagus.
sangat sangat membunuh.
kalau kita jumpa lagi,
harap-harap kat tangan kau,kau pegang air tin soya atau susu Dutch Lady.

terima kasih sebab panggil aku sahabat,
tapi simpan lah perkataan tersebut.
sebab,
bukan untuk aku :)

kau selalu sudi dengarkan aku cerita,
aku rasa aku sangat dihargai
terima kasih ya :)

kalau ada apa apa,
rojer-rojer lah.
aku tak janji aku akan tolong.
tapi aku akan cuba menjadi seseorang yang boleh comfort kan awak :)


azrin,
maaf bro
sebab aku sangat jahat
=,='

aku pun tak tahu kenapa kau boleh ter-senarai dalam blog list penutup tirai 2010
mungkin sebab kau si bosan yang pelik.

entah
by the way,
momen tu aku memang tak boleh lupa -,-'
sebab aku rasa kau Mr. Bajet
haha
sorry lah
terima kasih sebab jadi kawan aku sampai sekarang :)
terima kasih sebab tak takut aku macam Encik "Amer"
*kirim salam kat dia.


_______________________________________________

the world still spinning,
the sun still gives the warmth
the sky still befriend with the ocean
the birds still in the nest
the clouds still be the shapes,

the memories will never fade away,
if they do,
please burn the film of 2010.

for being one of the haters,
one of the lovers,
one of the fools,
one of the students,
one of the liars,
one of the idiots,
one of the followers,
one of the dreamers.
one of the everything,

for being all of these,
2010,hope you will never forget Who-I-Am.
:)

Dec 26, 2010

RPKians

5 SCIENCE 1/2010
kelas bersepah,
baru pertama kali dapat tempat pertama dalam setahun,
cikgu ada atau tak ada,rock&roll selalu bergema



motif :
nak tunjuk aku duduk kat tempat paling depan
strategik tak?
waktu maths kadang ter-sengguk sengguk
waktu addmaths tak berani nak tunduk kepala
waktu Bahasa Melayu jarang tutup mulut
waktu Bahasa Inggeris selalu nak lelapkan mata
*waktu sivik paling best =,=

dan
satu hal lagi,
aku & rakan seperjuangan aku
AMAT TERLALU TERSANGAT TERLAMPAU TERSUNGGUH
BENCI
meja biru ini !
junior,you owed us the space !

dan,
ini note dari aku&kawan-kawan
siapa peneraju,siapa penyambung dan siapa penamat
tak perlu tahu.
yang perlu tahu : ini kes bosan&agak tertekan sebelum SPM

*rasa nak updated banyak banyak pasal momen-momen kita di sekolah,
betul,aku rindu sangat kat korang <3

Dec 24, 2010

je t'aime :)

"i wanna tell you something,but im afraid baby"

"it's okay,just finish your sentences and i will be okay"

"it is hard for me to let you know this,"

"till when you wanna hide it from me?"

"im not sure,but "

"i will try to understand you honey"

"it is not what you are thinking about,"

"and i guess,it is."

"it is all about my family,"

"oh my dear,it is all about you."

"can you just be my friend?"

"why not?"

"best friend?"

"always"

"thank you dear"

"my pleasure"

_________________________________________________

*text-ing my friend,

"i thought this would never happen"

"what?"

"he asks me to be his friend,best friend"

"whats the problem? i dont get it,seriously,"

"he says this is family's problem,but i think this is his problem"

"sorry,not too clear,"

"okay okay,he didnt love me,and he admits that"

"what about all the things that he had done to you?"

"we cant buy love with things,not even sell it,"

"so,the end?"

"im not giving up,"

"just let him go,he's not deserves for you"

"i will try babe,"

"you always,"

________________________________________________

*receive-ing calling from Mr. A

"hello?"

"hey wassup girl,watcha doing?"

"listening to music,"

"have you seen Santa? He is in blue this year!"

"why not in green?"

_________________________________________________

guess what?
my heart always CORRECT, :)

im receiving his message today,tonight,

"hey my best friend! how are you?"

"not really enjoy this day,"

"sad?"

"for what?"

"nothing"

"so,hows your princess?"

"she's fine,but she is angry with me,"

"why?you want me to help you?"

"yes,"

"tell me her attitude,"

"she is soft-heart-ed girl,easily to coax, but not for these 2-3 days."

"call her,tell her the truth that we have nothing,not even in relationship from the beginning"

"i've told her,but she stills cant accept im not officially yours"

"hey,coax her by using your heart,not words"

"i will try,"

"try your best!"

"kinda tired,"

"if you really love her,the word 'tired' is not in your dictionary"

"okay then"

"gambatte!"

___________________________________________________

sometimes we dont get what we really want,
we make hopes and wishes to the wishes stars,
and,we dont even get them,sometimes not even ONE of them.

love has no rule(S)
if we really love somebody and we cant make him/her as ours
dont try to kill your heart,it is useless.
if you feel happy when you love that person,move on.
if you enjoy your life while thinking bout your ex-lover,go on.
but,
if these kill you in silence,
stop it and look forward.





Dec 23, 2010

always,you are my Dinosaur :)



not too big,not too small,
just like a teddy and always smile.
have charming eyes,only in my heart,
when you laugh,im the invisible one :)

accidentally we meet&fight
mad at you? of course i am.
flashback what we have done,
for a short time,you have made yourself as mine.

my phone is vibrating and your name appear
we talk like a monster and fight about her,
i told you "dont be afraid,she is just a girl"
you look down& "can we avoid her?"

it is funny when you ask me to be your PA,
i thought thats only our imagination to have a smile,
and you call me "hey princess" for many many times,
so i guess thats the answer that im waiting for a mile :)

basketball's player oh i admire the most
always thought i wouldnt meet,but now you are here
"can we play together?"
"i will teach you later"

when im at the library,i thought im alone with my buddies
again my phone is dancing and letter 'R' is at the middle of your name,
"hey my princess where have you been?"
"im here,always at the library"
"it's okay then,see you later"
and i look back,you are standing with your calculator :)

there's one thing that make you as my superdino,
it was when we had lunch together,and i almost fell,
you looked at me, "you fall, i wont help"
"it's okay,i dont ask that much"
and i saw your face with fulled of worries :)

hey my prince,obviously you drag me in,
drag me into your heart through that vein,
when im reading,you kick my leg,
when im asking and scolded you baby,
you keep on silence "i just wanna see your face"

my sepet,your words always make me sad,
when i ask "till when"
you just tell, "i dont even know"
but when i dont reply
you call me and "just pray we are meant together"

both of us know,
you have my heart,i have yours
you are my heart,i am yours
you love my smile,i love you just the way you are.

thanks for being my DINOSAUR :)




Dec 22, 2010

should i? NO ^_^


percaya? aku tipu je ni, GILA ke aku nak habiskan masa TIDUR aku macam tu? i would like to tell you that i LOVE to sleep,and thats my hobby. ;)
and
i HATE to think of you again and again,
and i HATE to hate you,im tired&i would like to resign.
im not saying that i LOVE to love you,thats make me more more more tired,
im not saying that "i will try my best to get you back"
this make me feel COWARD&sorry ;D

Dec 21, 2010

Hold My Hand (II)




guru kelas 5 science 1 : Puan Irdawati Saari
terbaik : cheese cake,blueberry cheese cake,SIVIK! :D
heart you teacher! <3>

warna merah itu bukan anti-kanser,mahupun tag nama.
itu adalah kertas bersama dengan klip kertas.
handmade :)
by: tqa,ain,biha, *yang lain aku dah lupa,sorry T,T



VOICE(s)
suara mereka mantap,terbaik.puhhh !
sue,nani,tqa,shaika.
:)
kalau boleh,tiap tiap hari boleh dengar mereka menyanyi,
tiap-tiap waktu,mahupun semasa membuat latihan/kerja rumah yang dibuat di sekolah :D


ini special kes,
dia GANGSTER sekolah,betul,seyes,aku tak tipu!
:D
*ada muka aku tipu tak?tak ada kan?aku jujur ni!!
okay okay! fine! dia memang baik,tak pernah buat cikgu marah mahupun kami.
tapi sejak kebelakangan ni,aku macam rasa dia adalah gangster,
maybe sebab cara dia jalan,atau apa-apa ,
tanya lah sue,dia pun setuju aku cakap dia gangster sekolah
HAHA :D


perkenalkan
guru PHYSICS&anaknya :D
suami kepada guru kelas kami,Pn Irdawati ;)
sir kami memang suka makan gula-gula.
sebelum kelas fizik start,
seandainya aku/kawan-kawan semeja aku ada gula-gula,
dorang akan pengaruh aku supaya meletakkan gula-gula atas laptop sir
dan,
bila sir tengok,
dia tersenyum,
diaa suka,
tapi isteri sir cakap,
"kalau suami saya kencing manis,saya cari awak lina"
-,-'
kasihanilah saaya cikguu,saya tak bersalah.
sir pun suka :DD



semasa menunggu ibu&ayah mengambil kami pulang,
kami bosan dan tiada kerja
*seolah olah kami tak kan menduduki SPM pada tahun ini -,-'
honestly,
mereke memang terbaik, :)


ini pelajar 5science 1,ya,ramai
lebih kurang 31 orang kot,
macam-macam karakter aku jumpa.
yang macam kartuunn pun ada,
;))


sambungan dari kisah yang sebelum ini,semasa menunggu ibu bapa kami membawa kami pulang.
;DD


theme: face(S)
*lupalah theme apa -,-

=.=
inilah wajah kelas kami,trademark kelas kami.
haha,
suka sangat buat muka bengkek,
-,-'


oh,kasihan atiqah ahmad,separuh kau eh?
HAHA!

bye ;)
semangat! semangat!
:DD

think? think it triple twice ;D




need another rainbow? sure,i really need it,but of course i have it always and forever :)

think that i will fall down? fall into the mud that you have created? you are absolutely wrong :)

think that i may fall in love with you ONCE again? fall in love with a person that had tuned my mind into another robot's character? you are not in the right track baby ;)

think that i will miss you a lot? miss you without care how much i have to be a heart's donor? think it twice ;)

think that i will crave your name on my wrist and have fun with the flowing blood? your name are not supposed to be here,not even once :)

think that i will cry and have a lot of time to think about our memories? should i waste my time to take a long travel just to flashback what we had been through together?

think that i will create a novel just to keep our love story that has totally ruined by your own promises? it is better if i write my own new love story with my own colours :)

think that i will be the weakest girl that will think about you all the time? hey boy,i am tough,dont you remember? ;)

think that i will put your photo as the wallpaper&screen saver? think that i will easily let the virus(es) kill my phone?

think that i will hug my friends and tell them "hey guys,i have lost my prince,he is the only one that can make me smile&laugh" . dont you think i will say, "hey guys,i have lost him,the person that i should not know,the person that know nothing about feeling :) "

think that i will suicide? should i be my own murderer just for the boy that care nothing about me? enough for the sin(S) that i've made,enough.

think that i will stay here and wait for you till the end of my life? i have a lot of works to do,and seriously, i dont wanna waste my time,seriouslllllyyy :)

think that i will make a wish to have you once again in my life? i wont ask more from Him,enough for me to ask Him to always protect you&your family members.

think that i will always imagine about the moments; we laugh,jokes,moody,lost hopes. seriously, i cant remember those things,as i knew your promises are the poisons :)


i have a heart;
and it is not for keeping the film.

i have two ears;
and they are not for listening to your broken promises.

i have a smile;
i have a smile;
and i knew that
i would never glance at you&smile from ear to ear.
i would never use it to wipe your tears,
because
smile is just a word,not the action.

i have two eyes;
and they are not for looking at your voice,
but
searching for the stars&rainbow,
for the miracle only He knows :)

______________________________________________________


by the way,
honestly,does this blog is scary?
someone told me,that you've said that word ;)

cantik :)


ini lukisan,ya. lukisan tercantik&terbaik pernah aku terima daripada seseorang
bergelar adik :)

"kak lina,in letak di sini ya"
sambil memanjat katil dan cuba menampalnya bersebelahan katil aku,di dinding.

"kau nak bagi saya mimpi ngeri ke?"

"hmm.tak suka tak apalah,"

"eh,tak apa tak apa.teruskan melekat.letaklah.saya akan mimpi indah :D "

sambil dia cari gam double sided, dia nyanyi,
"warna cokelat anak mata,..."

dan,
"weyh azri,macam pernah dengar lirik tu!"

"heehe. :D " sambil tersengih sengih

"sekejap! nak berfikir"

"warna cokelat anak mataa...."

"kau ambil inspirasi daripada lagu CANTIK ke?"

"a'ah :D "

patutlah kalau aku usha gambar tu,mata dia warna cokelat,anak mata dia warna cokelat.menakjubkan! -,-'

sekarang,lukisan tercantik ini memang ada di sebelah katil aku,gara-gara suruhan kakak aku yang menyuruh adik aku meletakkannya di sisi aku. -,-'

bila tengah malam,aku tengok,aku tak boleh tidur,sebab aku rasa lukisan ini sangat menyeramkan aku,tapi adik aku cakap ini cantik.

terimakasih azri :')

Dec 17, 2010

thing(s) i love,thing(s) i hate,&totally i LIKE :)


16th APRIL - just sing me a song,thats the best gift i want ;D

BOYS
- i love to be your friend,listen to your stories about your&your future girlfriend(s)

GIRLS
- love to be one of your shopaholic 's friend,& listen to your mumbling about your day ;D

KIDS
- i love you damn much! love to see your face,your smile,laugh and your own thought(s) about life :)

ANIMALS
- i wish i can go to zoo everyday, and meet you there! ♥ there's a lot of thing i want o share with you,and i love the way you are,damn cute! ^_^

CARTOON
- you have changed my life,thanks bro! and,forever Ben 10 is mine ;)

FOOD
- i admit that, i cant leave you,even for a while,because i love to eat you,and nobody can stop me,NOBODY :)

LOVE
- like cookies,nyummy & easily cracks ;D

LIFE
- He has given me the best life&im sorry for always unsatisfied

PEOPLE
- i love to watch your character,sometimes you can be a good pretender,sometimes you are the good human being, sometimes you love to see your own life ruin by itself,sometimes you cant give the truth&let the lie(s) be your best buddy :)

CASTLE
- i will build it,with my mum&dad's love,friend's laugh,kids' thoughts ♥

CHOCOLATE
- iloveyoufuckingdamn,& you are the 1st class of drug that has turn off my imagination because only you&me :)

CAMERA
- DSLR,how i can get you baby?

TEDDY
- always imagine you have a lot of friends,but till now,only that turtle can be your room-mate, dont worry,you have me&i have you,we love each other,right? ^_^

DINOSAUR
- for sure,i want to meet you,hug you&be your friend not food :) thanks for appearing (always) in my dreams, i wish i can hold your hands ; but please dont eat me 0_o

MONSTER
- ouhh,you are so beautiful honeyy! honestly,can i be your princess?

OGRE
- shrek! aha! i loveyou lah! ♥ ♥ ♥ people hate you,but i need you. people ignore you, but i miss you. people stay away from you, but i wanna hug you!

VEGETABLES
- stop asking me to eat these greeny things, i WONT!

ONIONS
- i hate you,FULLSTOP!

SCHOOL
- i will miss you a lot, i will,



all about me,btw this is just a lil bit,not at all :)

Dec 16, 2010

oh,SURPRISE? :)


yet,no one knows how hard i have to live today,how long i can breathe yesterday,how far i can shut up my tears from dropping. it is not impossible,as i can turn you off,yes,OFF :')
just take your time,just try to imagine,

"rainbow can disappear,but not the sky. heavy rain can stop immediately,but not the sky.sunshine can hide itself,but not the sky. and,this is how you have turn my heart into the sky ;) "

and,how perfect you had created my smile before,
you have perfectly created my tears now&forever :)

let me borrow your eyes,your ears and your heart,just let me borrow them for a minute,

your eyes; let they see what i have done for you,even when you are sleeping,

your ears; let they hear,what i have asked Allah,not only for two of us,

your heart; let it knows how hard i have to stand&breathe to accept the 'AWAKEN'


and,maybe this is the last time i have to say "I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING" because i have no chance to say these words ;after i have posted this :)

i will stand,and walk.

tell me,






and, i wish, "love-rain will fall onto me,into my heart-beat".

and,it disappears;for a long time,disappears as it doesnt even know me,know who i am,
thanks.

will the heart-shape full filled the shapes in this miserable thought? it cant,not even once.
you have made it lost,you have made it as my nightmare,you have made it belong to other(s)
and,
i disagree,,

hey you,
listen here,listen to me,
im writing you a note,not an essay,
im singing you a song,not a poem,
im wishing you will be here,not with other girls
im hoping,not thinking
im praying,not mumbling.

how far i have to go,it doesnt matter,until i get you in my arm,
yes,i wont stop even after i die,
i promise you this,
i promise you those words i have made
before you know how much i love you till the end,
till i meet you and give you a tape that has recorded my steps just to meet you,
meet you my love,
meet you.





Dec 14, 2010

uncontrolled,

back off,please.

Dec 11, 2010

IF there is no word "IF"


If i can hold you in my arm,
if i can be the only one that you will see when it is sunrise,
if i can touch your words with my little smile,
if i can hug you while you are busy with your nightmare,
if i can kiss your tears and wipe your fears with my tiny ears,
if i can give you comfort with the truth you only know,
if i can lend you a life without care how much i have to sacrifice,
if i can rise you up with my own laugh,
if i can write you a poem "I Love You Accidentally"
if i can sing you a song tittled "Only Time and Space Between Us"
if i can tell you a bedtime story while you are crying,
if i can let you in my mind for every second i breathe,
if i can hold your hands while you are listening another voices,

if i can be someone that can be your something,
if i can be someone that will be your everything,
but now,
it is just "IF"
and IF i still breathing
this will be the moments
the moments that will never die,
will never die with the time.

and,
time does need a space to realize how special you are in my life
my little sunshine <3




does a rainbow know how frequent your songs played in my tears?



Dec 10, 2010

goodbye,


should i call this freedom?


freedom is not
a reason to stay alive,
a food to full the stomach,
a dream to keep on moving,
a life to give the breathe,
a heart-beat to think twice,
a miracle to jump high,
a laugh to enjoy the nightmare,
a song with tuneless melody.

freedom is
an empty smile with the fool jokes,
an empty joy with a fool laugh,
an empty thought with a fool proud,
an empty love with a fool hug,
an empty sunshine with the fool wishes,
an empty life with a lot of lies.


I have a friend,his name is Freedom and he asks me what he has to do to make people stay away from him,because
people become too violent,too un-appreciate,unpredictable,murderer
just to grab him in their life,
just like what i had done to my own life to write his name in my diary.
and,
I am not satisfied.




Dec 9, 2010

Hold My Hand :)


"Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have though"